Clumsy with FOOD

Yesterday, I was v. clumsy and v.sad :C . Because my parents brought me and my 2 other sisters(1 more go tuition) out to eat dinner. At the restaurant, I was v.clumsy as in super clumsy. I dropped my knife 2 times and when I wanted to take a tissue under C's icecream, the ice cream was very light so it dropped. She was very sad (she cried for awhile) because she really like the ice cream very much and there was only a little bit left. I was very sorry and sad too because I really did not want things to drop on the floor because of me. So I started crying while I wipe my shoes( stained with the ice cream). I heard my father scolding:" Its not about the food, its about the ATTIUDUE" What attiudue? I did not meant to drop anything! I was really super sad actually my sister dropped her knife 1 time but he did not scold her. And at night, he did not even talk to me like last time and only talk to my sister...he and my mother kept saying that I am sec1 and I cannot be childish but I am not even SEC1! theres still 3 more months to go! And today, when eating branch, I wanted to drink water but when I reach for my cup, it dropped and the water spilled onto my sister's food. I really dun noe why these days I am so clumsy and everyone is CHANGING...... Now I try not to go close to food so that I won't waste anymore food.I tink I spell wrong attiudue.